i turned over the position as an sk chair last monday… and boy, was it overly dramatic… i cried bucket of tears!!… like a hundred bucketful of tears!!

okay, so that was quite lame… and yes, the tears — a lie… but i felt a bit sad though… i mean, where in the world could u find a job where u could just enter the office twice a month and yet you still receive a just compensation?! haha… okay, hold on your eggs! throw them at me later!

being a politician sucks… believe me… after 5 years of emotional and psychological battery, my 7500 a month salary wasn’t enough to cover the wounds that were lashed invisibly on my whole body… i was literally abused, starting that job at 15! whew, i saw monsters everyday… in fact, i’d rather have nightmares every night than spend a day in my barangay and face all those crude people who never once made me smile! public service?! wow, how fictional… i only did that on my first day… everything else followed was forced labor!

i had fun times but i can’t remember them anymore… i’m not trying to be bitter about this, but it’s just that i worry… things didn’t start well back there… though i know they’ll figure things… they must…

and so now i’m left with one job… i am not complaining… it pays big… but it’s draining as well… i just wish i could find a job somewhere else that i could actually enjoy… it’s a given that work is hard, but i don’t think i need to exhaust myself this hard at this age… i feel like i need to fly to a place where i could be free and not mind my problems and not hear about everybody else’s problems… i think i am being such a problem absorber right now… everyone around me tells me a lot of wrong things about their lives… the bad thing is that i end up wanting to solve their problems… i can’t even do it… it’s frustrating enough to handle my own, and listening to other people grieve about theirs is all the more saddening!

man, i need a break… i’m now gonna live life on my own… this is the end of it… i’m gonna start anew! i’m gonna start good! away from it all… just as i wanted.